God used some things to really convict me the other day about my need to rely on Him more and more in all areas of my life. I have always had difficulty just blindly relying on His providence, and I realized how selfish that is.
In merely the past year, He has given me a full ride scholarship to a college that simply brims with opportunities for unique educational, extracurricular, and most importantly ministerial endeavors.
But in addition to that, he has blessed me with incredible friendships, some that were established long ago and have simply blossomed anew, and some that have just started but have already shown their worth, and other that never stopped, but have seemingly always been from years and years ago.
He has given me the safety of a roof over my head, safe food and water, and a safe place to worship...commodities that are oft taken for granted, but can be very difficult to attain in other countries.
And many, many, many other things that I have not time nor space to list.
It really struck me though as I considered all of that just how foolish I was to ever doubt His providence. So many times, I have counseled others to trust in His provision, while I myself tried to "take the necessary steps" to ensure my own happiness or well-being, lest God not do it "how I wanted it done". And in every single situation the outcome that He established, was always far better than anything I could have fabricated or wanted accomplished myself.
It is so true that hind-sight is always twenty-twenty.
So I will now, more than ever before, seek to retain the caution of Philippians 4:6-7:
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Particularly now, as I enter a stage of my life that is completely foreign and unknown, where many important parts of the course that the rest of my life will take will be established. So I ask you brothers and sisters, to please pray for me that I may learn to increasingly surrender my life to the One Who had all control to begin with and deserves all control to the end.
About Me
- Ascottishsamurai
- I am a simple student...trying to figure out which way the Lord is pulling me. At present I am a communications major. I chose this field of study for two reasons: The first of these reasons is that I fear that I might be being called to become a pastor. This frightens me for yet two more reasons. The first is that I know just how fallible of a man I am and how desperately I need grace, and do not trust myself to teach and sheperd the people of God as such. The second is that I have seen first hand, being a pastor's child for so many years, just how difficult a life in the ministry can be to the family of the pastor. But should this not be God's will for me, I feel that a major in communications will be a very marketable degree that will allow me to break into many different fields. In the end I know that the Lord will have me doing exactly what He wants me to be doing.
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